A lot of people
shy away from speaking the truth about immorality, in this case
sexual immorality. Apparently, we have heard and at some point seen
cases of children as young as 5 years being victims of sexual
molestation, mostly by people they label the most important in their
lives like parents, relatives and even their closest friends. As
girls struggle with cases of rape, boys too have fallen prey to
Sodomy. It is very painful and absurd when the society silences the
legal rights of people especially the less fortunate in the society
by not reporting the criminals of these ruthless acts. Not submitting
these maniacs is like being in cahoots with them as they exploit
innocent people to satisfy their emotional needs.
During my four
years in high school, I got the chance to interact with my fellow
students. I heard stories of their experiences in life and tales
about sexual spirits and things happening in this world that I knew
nothing about. I’m glad that I was wise to keenly listen to them
and guide them on how to forget the past and focus on what God has
prepared for them for the future. I have however never forgotten
them; they’ve slept soundly in my mind, memories that have helped
me transform people in life.
Research that has
been done lately states that the level of virginity is going down day
by day. A lot of justifications have been given too but this might
look too obvious but it’s quite a crucial matter.
A certain lady
explained to me how she lived in this world before she met Christ.
Her life was stuck to listening to secular music, going for night
outs with friends and would drink all night. They were 5 ladies in
the group but had boyfriends who’d accompany them during events
like concerts, camps, sports and weekend hang outs. “We would drink
and dance all night. We cared less about whatever happened to us. I
was in charge of ordering for beer and my cousin Jacky would come
along with a couple of drugs and pornographic materials,” Beacky
continues with her story as tears drop out of her eyes, all this
while, I listen keenly without interrupting. “Life was smooth and
fun, we’d get cash from our parents who stayed in the states at
that time and since no one would follow up on us, we did what we
thought was right with it. I remember this particular night, we had
gone with Jackie to a neighbour’s birthday party and all the
handsome dudes in the hood were invited. We had dressed up for the
party; short dresses, long weave, and thick make-up summed up with
expensive perfumes. That was the night I went intimate with a guy I
only met that evening. We had talked a little about where he comes
from, our day to day lives and by midnight, it seemed like I had
known him for years. How I went into that dark room, I can’t
remember, up to date but the most unbelievable bit is that I have
never seen that guy again nor heard about him nor do I even recall
how he looked like.
After losing my
virginity on that particular night, I went thought about it and
shared it with Jackie. I thought she would help but she brushed me
off and told me that it was part of life and I should embrace it and
count myself lucky that I had grown up very first; I was 16 by then.
Since that time, she would bring her boyfriends at home and brought
along an extra one for me. All we would do is watch movies and commit
sins that are so hard to even utter out. A day would not end without
my body yawning for intimacy and would not sleep without it. At times
I would imagine and meditate on the actions when I was all alone. It
was so serious that I got to a level where I slept with a watchman
and paid him to keep quiet. My life was so full of misery and my
health was deteriorating. It was then when I went to the hospital and
was diagnosed with HIV virus that it came to my notice that it was
now over for me. I struggled with acceptance from the people I
thought were the closest in my life. I had to tell the truth to my
parents who then disowned me and chased me away from home. Jackie was
the only person I would talk to but she had died due to excessive
intake of cocaine. She was found in her room three days after her
death. There was no one else I would run to yet I was carrying a 5
months pregnancy of a child I wasn’t sure whom the father was. I
slept in the street corridors for some time until I heard of some
preaching in a crusade about how rich we are because we are immediate
children of the Father in Heaven and that we should live in
accordance to his ways. The pastor kept insisting on repentance of
sin and God would accept people back and deliver them. I kept this
word in heart and I really thought of it. That night before I slept,
I knelt down and asked God to forgive me and deliver me from the
devils bondage. I recall that it was a very short prayer but which
had come from deep inside my heart. Two days later, posters had been
pinned in town in search of Beacky Mulolwe, my parents came looking
for me and asked me to go back home and start life a fresh.
I took a turn
around and my life has never been the same again. My daughter is
doing well in school and she’s always leading in class. She is head
of the children’s choir in church and has a very special kind of
lifestyle that she prays to people and they get well I have been
going for the HIV tests but every time I get my results, they state
negative, what more can I ask from God if He has done more than what
I had asked him”
Beackys beginning
was not pleasing at all. See the kind of lifestyle that she had been
leading and the kind of deeds she was into yet God still accepted her
back, cleansed her and made her a totally new being. This proves that
sexual spirits are there but if we learn to lean on the Lord, He
shall guide us through. Many people in the body of Christ are victims
of sexuality and sexual spirits but hide in the confines of their
outside spirituality. Sexual spirits are part of the works of the
flesh and can change your mind that you will get to thinking about
intercourse that you even dream doing the acts. Beacky as a symbol
has justified how Satan works by using the desires of the flesh,
makes people meditate on them and later, the deeds are seen. Others
that I will not fail to leave out is what agony aunts and love
doctors in our radios, TVs and newspapers tend to say is fine,
masturbation. Who are you to dare claim that masturbation is fine, it
is also a sexual spirit together with the likes of lesbianism,
homosexuality, fornication, adultery, bestiality and all those I’ve
not mentioned. Let us as Christians seek Gods guidance on how to live
and think in accordance to His will that we won’t end up thinking
demonically.
