SEXUALITY AND SEXUAL SPIRITS

A lot of people shy away from speaking the truth about immorality, in this case sexual immorality. Apparently, we have heard and at some point seen cases of children as young as 5 years being victims of sexual molestation, mostly by people they label the most important in their lives like parents, relatives and even their closest friends. As girls struggle with cases of rape, boys too have fallen prey to Sodomy. It is very painful and absurd when the society silences the legal rights of people especially the less fortunate in the society by not reporting the criminals of these ruthless acts. Not submitting these maniacs is like being in cahoots with them as they exploit innocent people to satisfy their emotional needs.

During my four years in high school, I got the chance to interact with my fellow students. I heard stories of their experiences in life and tales about sexual spirits and things happening in this world that I knew nothing about. I’m glad that I was wise to keenly listen to them and guide them on how to forget the past and focus on what God has prepared for them for the future. I have however never forgotten them; they’ve slept soundly in my mind, memories that have helped me transform people in life.

Research that has been done lately states that the level of virginity is going down day by day. A lot of justifications have been given too but this might look too obvious but it’s quite a crucial matter.

A certain lady explained to me how she lived in this world before she met Christ. Her life was stuck to listening to secular music, going for night outs with friends and would drink all night. They were 5 ladies in the group but had boyfriends who’d accompany them during events like concerts, camps, sports and weekend hang outs. “We would drink and dance all night. We cared less about whatever happened to us. I was in charge of ordering for beer and my cousin Jacky would come along with a couple of drugs and pornographic materials,” Beacky continues with her story as tears drop out of her eyes, all this while, I listen keenly without interrupting. “Life was smooth and fun, we’d get cash from our parents who stayed in the states at that time and since no one would follow up on us, we did what we thought was right with it. I remember this particular night, we had gone with Jackie to a neighbour’s birthday party and all the handsome dudes in the hood were invited. We had dressed up for the party; short dresses, long weave, and thick make-up summed up with expensive perfumes. That was the night I went intimate with a guy I only met that evening. We had talked a little about where he comes from, our day to day lives and by midnight, it seemed like I had known him for years. How I went into that dark room, I can’t remember, up to date but the most unbelievable bit is that I have never seen that guy again nor heard about him nor do I even recall how he looked like.

After losing my virginity on that particular night, I went thought about it and shared it with Jackie. I thought she would help but she brushed me off and told me that it was part of life and I should embrace it and count myself lucky that I had grown up very first; I was 16 by then. Since that time, she would bring her boyfriends at home and brought along an extra one for me. All we would do is watch movies and commit sins that are so hard to even utter out. A day would not end without my body yawning for intimacy and would not sleep without it. At times I would imagine and meditate on the actions when I was all alone. It was so serious that I got to a level where I slept with a watchman and paid him to keep quiet. My life was so full of misery and my health was deteriorating. It was then when I went to the hospital and was diagnosed with HIV virus that it came to my notice that it was now over for me. I struggled with acceptance from the people I thought were the closest in my life. I had to tell the truth to my parents who then disowned me and chased me away from home. Jackie was the only person I would talk to but she had died due to excessive intake of cocaine. She was found in her room three days after her death. There was no one else I would run to yet I was carrying a 5 months pregnancy of a child I wasn’t sure whom the father was. I slept in the street corridors for some time until I heard of some preaching in a crusade about how rich we are because we are immediate children of the Father in Heaven and that we should live in accordance to his ways. The pastor kept insisting on repentance of sin and God would accept people back and deliver them. I kept this word in heart and I really thought of it. That night before I slept, I knelt down and asked God to forgive me and deliver me from the devils bondage. I recall that it was a very short prayer but which had come from deep inside my heart. Two days later, posters had been pinned in town in search of Beacky Mulolwe, my parents came looking for me and asked me to go back home and start life a fresh.

I took a turn around and my life has never been the same again. My daughter is doing well in school and she’s always leading in class. She is head of the children’s choir in church and has a very special kind of lifestyle that she prays to people and they get well I have been going for the HIV tests but every time I get my results, they state negative, what more can I ask from God if He has done more than what I had asked him”

Beackys beginning was not pleasing at all. See the kind of lifestyle that she had been leading and the kind of deeds she was into yet God still accepted her back, cleansed her and made her a totally new being. This proves that sexual spirits are there but if we learn to lean on the Lord, He shall guide us through. Many people in the body of Christ are victims of sexuality and sexual spirits but hide in the confines of their outside spirituality. Sexual spirits are part of the works of the flesh and can change your mind that you will get to thinking about intercourse that you even dream doing the acts. Beacky as a symbol has justified how Satan works by using the desires of the flesh, makes people meditate on them and later, the deeds are seen. Others that I will not fail to leave out is what agony aunts and love doctors in our radios, TVs and newspapers tend to say is fine, masturbation. Who are you to dare claim that masturbation is fine, it is also a sexual spirit together with the likes of lesbianism, homosexuality, fornication, adultery, bestiality and all those I’ve not mentioned. Let us as Christians seek Gods guidance on how to live and think in accordance to His will that we won’t end up thinking demonically.